Stuff on my mind...

Sometimes it seems like life gives you two choices:  To worry or not to worry. To love or to hate. To forgive or to be bitter. To believe or not to believe. It should be simple, yet not everything seems to be black and white. What about the gray area? This area is where my mind tells me to not worry, but my heartache tells me to. Or my heart says to love someone, when my mind says “But, I don’t like them”.

Lately I've been having problems with the "worry" part of the gray area. As a born-again Christian one should not worry. I know that, but as a human being, it is hard for me not to do so. I guess I've always been a worrywart of sorts. This probably sounds cliche, but it's just the way I am...it's my personality.

Off the top of my head something I would worry about is what outfit to wear, or what gift to buy...and then after deciding, I'd worry if I made the right choice as to what I decided to wear or did I ultimately buy the right gift...and the list goes on. I'm not indecisive: I can make decisions just fine, but I just worry about if I made the right choice. Does that make sense?

My most recent worry is my mom. I know I've mentioned my concern over her on some of my other posts. I worry about her because her health has declined the last couple of months, and she's not feeling well at all. I pray about this daily, and have given this concern completely over to the Lord.

But the shadow of worry still creeps into my mind, and I have to keep reminding myself that God is in control and He will take care of her.

As Christians, we need to give all of our worries and problems to the Lord and then keep praying about them and reading God's Word, but know that whatever happens...it is His will.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."~~~Isaiah 40:28-31 NIV